It seems when ever things are going great –my health is improving, I am free of pain or discomfort for several consecutive days or even weeks, I feel confident at work, I feel good about my body, etc.- something happens to set me back slightly. Maybe it’s because I pray less, read the bible less, and feel totally disconnected from God when things are going ‘good’. Maybe it’s his way of holding on to me even if just by a bare thread.

I want God to be first and foremost in my life. I want to place Him above and beyond every body and everything in my life. I want to love Him and trust Him with complete abandon. I want to feel His love, know His will for me, and follow His lead. Yet I find myself drifting further and further away from Him.