Solitude

I took Bob to the airport this morning. I knew I would miss him while he is gone but at the same time I was looking forward to staying home more, not going out to eat, and maybe using my new sewing machine. After I got back from the airport I went back to sleep. When I woke up I had some tea in bed, read, and watched TV. Now I am wandering around the house almost feeling lonely. I miss Bob already.

It's weird, I always feel like I don't have enough time for myself because of our busy schedules and now that I have all this time I don't know what to do with it. My friend Beckie wants to go see a movie tonight after 5 PM some time or next weekend and I can't even decide what I want. I figure going to see a movie will get me out of the house during the most difficult time of the day for me - evening. At the same time I really like being home in the evening.

All this made me think of my Mom. She is alone all the time. I wish she would move here and meet a man she can have a relationship with. It makes me sad to think that she will spend the rest of her life by herself. And I would love to be able to spend more time with my Mom also. The older I get the harder it is to be so far away from her.