How Ironic!

I read Kristen's blog (02.16.2005). So here I am. I just read my last post. Ironically I feel about the same today. The job I was talking about getting came through - and it sucks! This feels like a never-ending viscious cycle.

I love God and I want nothing more than to know him more intimately. We are reading "Blue Like Jazz". I was reading chapter four to Bob on our way back from Houston yesterday. When I read the following, it really hit me.

"The thing I loved about Nadine was that I never felt like she was selling anything. She would talk about God as if she knew Him, as if she had talked to Him on the phone that day."

Maybe if I knew God that intimately it would be easier to deal with health issues, a boring job, and an incompetent supervisor. I wish God would call me - He knows I always carry my cell phone with me. Does He have the number?

I think I stopped blogging because I was always whining and rarely had anything positive to say. I wish I had blogged the few months I was feeling awesome. One day I woke up and I felt like myself again - full of energy, positive, loving life, free of pain, focused. Maybe soon I will feel that awesome again.